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A while ago I use to come home from school on the train,I would take the Los Angles Blue Line, then the Redondo Beach Green Line, and either the 710 or 210 (which ever came first). Everyday this guy would take the same two trains && the same bus. I thought he was cute, but I never said anything.

One day on my way home while waiting for the Blue Line I saw him and he looked bothered. I wanted to say something but this girl walked up to him who apparently knew him and they held a conversation all the way until our train reached the Green Line. While waiting for the Green Line Train his phone rang, he had got a call from someone that his grandfather had died. He was tore up, he even cried, I wanted to reach out and hug him but I thought that maybe it wasnt the right time (and a little weird since I didn't know him). My heart was banging on my chest to say something, do something. I just sat there. I never saw him again, at least not in person.

About two weeks later I was watching a show I recorded on DVR. Sometimes te shows last longer than they should so I always set it to keep recording for 3 mins after the show ends. As the show that I was watching went off the news was coming on, I was getting ready to change the channel when I saw the headline that a "young man" had been killed, they showed a picture, it was him.

Calling all hearts to the battle field! How many times would you be willing to put your heart on the line for the sake of love? It seems to me that the majority of guys will give it a shot once; however, if the female in question fails to catch their heart in time, they're done.

When it comes to me, I believe that you should put your all into giving your heart to someone. But what happens if you're giving your heart to someone and they don’t realize it? Or they don't feel the same way at all? Or say they weren't ready for it at that point in time? How long do you wait before you try again?

Then comes the time where you feel like you're so close yet so far away. Nobody wants to make the first move so you’re stuck at a standstill. Afraid to go first because of the possibility that the other person doesn't feel the same way. At the end of the day you close your eyes with a rapid herd of "What ifs" stampeding towards you.

You have to learn to take chances. In the blink of an eye they may be gone without you ever having the chance to tell them how you feel. My mom always told me if you feel as though you should do something for somebody or say something to them, jump at the chance, you never know how it may change their lives for the better.

P.S I Love You (alot)

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