Dear Future Lover

In your eyes is where I hope to find my forever, I hope to be the weight that decides our forever. I hope to be the chains that bind us together. I don’t want our love to be superficial, I honestly hope you’re a poet of some sort. I hope that when we speak it’s like a jigsaw’s worth of words spilling from the ink of our minds into the precious ears of time, telling it “you’ll never come between us.”

I hope together we’re able to create, to build, to generate a love so regnant, it disconnects power lines standing between the normal establishments of such a thing. forcing them to redefine, rework and reroute their ideals, their love, and it’s overall meaning.

I hope together we inspire the younger generations, to take the steps we took, or to create something better. I want to be your art, your sculptor, your scalpel, your structure. The words from your tongue, the thoughts locked within the cells of your mind.

I hope you aren’t afraid of obstacles, challenges, tour buses, late night skyping, a.m fighting, then making up with rationality. I hope you aren’t afraid of taking chances, losing friends, missing out, and giving in. I hope you can handle my attitude, determination, awkwardness, kindness. I hope to see the best of all that you are, the worst, and their medians. I’m not afraid, nor will I ever be.

This time, I want it all. I’m showing you all the cards, giving you all my heart. This time, I’ll take the chance. I can be all you need, this time it’s all in me.

Lying alone in this room, all that I’m missing is you.

I hope our two lost souls soon connect, til then i’ll be bettering myself for no other cause but you.

Until Fingers Meet Keys:

Fall for your type (Angel Haze)

You are an ocean's breeze, I am the tidal wave.
You're every paragraph, I'm just the title page.
You have the heart I hold exactly where you desire it.
It's all so effortless like what you did to acquire it.
Each time I find it harder, just to keep my composure.
I'm tryna show you all of me, like indecent exposure.
Look... I'll be the gun, you be my holster.
I need your love, I need you closer.
Seems like forever when only an hour has past.
We falling slower than grains of salt in an hour glass.
Emotions running wild, you are who tames them.
My only means of tranquility, you are my sanctum !

&& if I could, I'd take your eyes && make them blend in w/ the stars so that whenever we're not together I'll still see them from afar.
But that's insane, I'd do what ever just to feel you.
Even all of that don't come close to what I will do!
They say love holds the power to fufill you...
Heal you, kill you, hurt && abuse you, take you away from what your use to.
I'm trying to paint a picture, like the canvas plain.
Trying to put together the words like a scrabble game.

Look, I pour my heart out in the effort just to win you.
I modify my actions soley so they won't offend you.
I mean I would wrestle time even if it'd get rewinded.
Everything you looking for, in me is where you'll find it.
So you can stop your searchin baby, I know you're hurting baby.
Your self-esteem so low sometimes that you feel worthless baby.
Okay you hide it well, but you know I can tell.
I see right through that bullshit that you be trying to sell.
So let it drop, let it fall, let it blow with the wind.
I told you once, I told you twice, && Imma tell you once again...
that I'll be here, yeah I'll be here.
&& if love is blind, then my mental is clear.
&& all we have is time && good intentions, fuck your breaks, fuck your suspicions .
Put your foot upon that gas && drive til you dont see your past.
Yeah, drive until your vision is blurred.
&& let my voice tell our story... SPOKEN WORD !

Fuck em, let em hate, we're where they never was.
&& fucking Shakespeare couldn't have wrote a better love.
But people tell me that I'm tripping when I say your different.
&& when they ask me how, I cant provide a description
... You don't need one...
I would disconnect them all, like a broken joint.
Just to prove I only see you like a focal point.
I know that the distances, might cause some complications.
But you make me feel good, fucked up, exonerated.
Still I wonder what you're like beneath the shackles that you're wearing.
I been longing to release you from a load thats overbearing.
Tell me, are you protected by your gaurd boo ?
Or could I blow && make it fall like cards do ?
&& I ain't interested til it involves you.
You got your doors locked, && I just saw through.
Have you reached the height of loneliness ? Cuz we all do !
But everything that goes up gotta fall too !

My first time, falling for your type. =)

Until Fingers Meet Keys:

Access Granted...DENIED

A while ago I use to come home from school on the train,I would take the Los Angles Blue Line, then the Redondo Beach Green Line, and either the 710 or 210 (which ever came first). Everyday this guy would take the same two trains && the same bus. I thought he was cute, but I never said anything.

One day on my way home while waiting for the Blue Line I saw him and he looked bothered. I wanted to say something but this girl walked up to him who apparently knew him and they held a conversation all the way until our train reached the Green Line. While waiting for the Green Line Train his phone rang, he had got a call from someone that his grandfather had died. He was tore up, he even cried, I wanted to reach out and hug him but I thought that maybe it wasnt the right time (and a little weird since I didn't know him). My heart was banging on my chest to say something, do something. I just sat there. I never saw him again, at least not in person.

About two weeks later I was watching a show I recorded on DVR. Sometimes te shows last longer than they should so I always set it to keep recording for 3 mins after the show ends. As the show that I was watching went off the news was coming on, I was getting ready to change the channel when I saw the headline that a "young man" had been killed, they showed a picture, it was him.

Calling all hearts to the battle field! How many times would you be willing to put your heart on the line for the sake of love? It seems to me that the majority of guys will give it a shot once; however, if the female in question fails to catch their heart in time, they're done.

When it comes to me, I believe that you should put your all into giving your heart to someone. But what happens if you're giving your heart to someone and they don’t realize it? Or they don't feel the same way at all? Or say they weren't ready for it at that point in time? How long do you wait before you try again?

Then comes the time where you feel like you're so close yet so far away. Nobody wants to make the first move so you’re stuck at a standstill. Afraid to go first because of the possibility that the other person doesn't feel the same way. At the end of the day you close your eyes with a rapid herd of "What ifs" stampeding towards you.

You have to learn to take chances. In the blink of an eye they may be gone without you ever having the chance to tell them how you feel. My mom always told me if you feel as though you should do something for somebody or say something to them, jump at the chance, you never know how it may change their lives for the better.

P.S I Love You (alot)

Until Fingers Meet Keys: